creativity limited within a box

I remember those times..those times where creativity took the best of me..I would drown my self with endless amount of colors, I adored drawing...i adored making, creating and constructing..Ideas would come to me and all i had to do was put them in motion. I adored writing poems, i wrote some of the best ones...my sorrow and pain would be translated into flawless and beatiful words...My sorrows and pain were something that shouldn't have been endured yet when i put them in the form of a poem it sounded so beaitufl that it was heart breaking..BUT now, i seem to struggle to put words in a form of a poem..perhaps its because i am no longer drowning in pain, suffering in sorrows.

so the question is..
can i not go out of my boundaries if im not hurt emotionally?
am i trapped within a box if i endure no pain?
can i not translate my moment of sanity into words that sound flawless and inspirational?
must my heart ache for me to push myself?

my goal is to answer these questions.
my goal is to be creative in any type of emotion!